Consciousness includes everything and judges nothing. One of the things I’ve been working on is the
willingness to see all sides of people.
The ways in which people can be kind and generous and the ways in which
they can be mean and vicious. When I
choose to only see the meanness and viciousness, I choose to separate and I cut
off my ability to see the kindness and caring that is also available.
The same goes with
Entities. Once I destroyed and uncreated
all the lies I had chosen to believe about the Spirit World, I found there was
a whole other universe available to me.
Did you know bodies have healing abilities that can facilitate and contribute consciousness and awareness? This isn’t exactly something we are taught in school, is it? Developing Pole Dancing For Consciousness has created a space for me to dive deeper into the possibilities with bodies in a way that I never expected. As much as I know in this moment, what happened recently at an Access Consciousness 7 Day event in Costa Rica facilitated me into even more awareness. I’d love to tell you what occurred….
For most of my life I was separating from my body. I was functioning from the head up. Aimlessly wandering around thinking…and thinking….and thinking….and mostly, confusing myself. Functioning from the various insane thoughts my mind generated based on my life experiences.
For a long time I was shutting off so many parts of myself. I was trapped in the “Good Girl Dilema” trying to please everyone around me. I shut off my energy, my beauty, my sexualness, my desires and my receiving from the world. I was trying to fit myself into the appropriate box that make everyone happy and I was totally forgetting me. Funny thing is, I was often labeled as “The Black Sheep” in my family. As much as I cut myself off from me, it was never enough to please anyone.
I began my journey with pole dancing about 3
years ago. I could tell you that when I
first heard about pole dancing I was shocked at the idea of stripping as a way
of working out. That would be a total lie
though. My body practically leaped at
the chance to pole dance.
What would surface if you were asked to review your life and remember the first time you felt loved?
As I sat with this question, I came up against darkness, sadness and fear. My heart sank with the awareness that I had not felt truly loved or safe as a child. Can you relate to the hole that is left in your heart when you grow up feeling this way?
“Love those who challenge you the most, they are your greatest teachers”
This is a very important lesson and yet, in my experience, it is also only part of the lesson.
A few years ago I entered into a business partnership that had infinite potential for growth. My relationship with one of the partners was…challenging. At the time, I truly believed that this challenging friendship/partnership was one of my “greatest teachers.” I truly believed that if I continued loving this person that everything would work itself out. I was grateful for the opportunity to learn and grow and I was always open to receiving this great gift. I mean, it’s all love…right?
I recently read The Big Leap by Gay Hendricks. In the final chapter, Gay talks about taking ownership of time. He says that we are the producers of time. We can create as much time or as little time we want. He cites examples to support his thesis which made a lot of sense to me. I know I have experienced “time flying when I am having fun” and time has certainly dragging on when I am doing something that I don’t really want to do. But to bring awareness to this and actually take ownership of it was mind-blowing so, I put it to the test.
On the night of Tuesday, November 29 2011, I was arrested by the LAPD while peacefully asserting my 1st Amendment right to free speech. While on the front lines of the Occupy LA raid I was peacefully chanting asserting my right to be a witness to the actions that were taking place.